slomkowski's Revelife

MY INNER MOST FEELINGS

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 14:29:06 GMT

YESTERDAY MY EMOTIONS WENT BESERK, I FELT SADNESS/ANGER/LONELY AND I ALLSO FELT USED AND I FELT LIKE NO ONE CARES ANYMORE ABOUT ANYONE. I EVEN LASHED MY ANGER OUT ON MY ROOMATE CARRIE BY YELLING AT HER, THEN I TOOK MY ANGER OUT ON THE LIVEING ROOM WALL. THE OLY THING I MANAGED TO ACOMPLISH THERE WAS TO HURT MY HAND, IF YOU READ MY BLOGS YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND WHAT I HAVE BEEN THREOGH. I DONT HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE, CAN'T AFORD IT FOR ONE AND SECOND IT HELPS IF YOU HAVE FREINDS. I THINK WHAT MADE ME BREAK DOWN AND CRY WAS, I DONT KNOW IF I HAVE A FREIND ANYMORE OR NOT.

I CONSIDER A GUY NAMED CHRISS TO BE MY FREIND AND SOMEONE I CAN TALK TO. IVE LOST SO MUCH IN MY DEVORCE, AND NOW I MIGHT HAVE LOST ANOTHER GOOD FREIND AND THAT MAKES ME FEEL SAD! I HAVE BEEN USED SO MUCH IN MY LIFE, I GIVE HELP TO OTHERS EVEN THOUGH I DONT HAVE MUCH TO GIVE. I HELPED CHRISS WITH ADVICE AND MONEY FOR DIAPERS FOR HIS DAUGHTER AND WITH GAS MONEY. I FED HIM AND HIS NOW EX GIRLFREIND EVEN THOUGH I HAD LITTLE FOOD FOR OURSELVES. THE LAST TIME I HERD FROM HIM WAS ABOUT 5 DAYS AGO, HE GOT THE LAST OF MY MONEY THAT I HAD LEFT FOR THE MONTH AND HE TOLD ME HE WOULD PAY ME BACK WHEN HE GETS HIS STIMULESS CHECK FROM THE GOVERMENT. WITCH I HERD FROM HIS EX GIRLFREIND HE GOT IT ON MONDAY. IVE TRIED TO CALL HIM TWICE A DAY FROM MONDAY TILL NOW WITH NO CALL IN RETURN, AND I LEFT MESSAGES ON HIS PHONE AND HE HAS YET TO CALL ME BACK.

NOW I FEEL ALL ALONE WITH NO FREINDS, SOMETIMES I WISH I DIDN'T BELEIVE IN GOD, BECAUSE NOW I FEEL LIKE DYEING. I EVEN HAVE HAD THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ABOUT RUNNING AWAY FROM EVERYONE IN THE WORLD. HOW CAN PEOPLE BE SO CRULE OR UNCAREING FOR ONE ANOTHER? NO ONE IS HELPING ME WITH ANYTHING, AND I THINK THAT IS WHY I FEEL SO ALONE. I DONT KNOW IF IM MAKEING A DIFFERENCE IN LETTING PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT JAMES KINGSLEY. HES A VERY DANGEROUS AND A CRAZY MAN, BUT I KEEP TRYING TO GET THE WORD OUT THERE. I DO IT BECAUSE I DO CARE ABOUT OTHERS, AND DONT WANT WHAT HAPPEND TO ME TO HAPPEN TO ANYONE ELSE.

I DO THINK NOW MORE THEN EVER, THAT THE END OF TIME IS COMEING SOON. UNLESS WE CAN GET BACK TO CAREING ABOUT ONE ANOTHER, AND HELPING EACH OTHER THEN YES THATS WHAT I THINK WILL HAPPEN. IM A REGISTERD VOTER BUT I DON'T VOTE ANY MORE BECAUSE I FEEL THE GOVERMENT DOSENT CARE ABOUT THE PEOPLE ANY MORE! AND BEING HANDYCAPED DOSENT HELP WITH ME FEELING USELESS. MY HEART HAS BEEN BROKEN SO MANY TIMES, I DON'T KNOW IF I EVER WILL TRY TO FIND LOVE AGAIN. I HAD SO MANY OF MY DREAMS SHATTERD, LIKE HAVEING A LOVEING AND CAREING WIFE AND KIDS. NOW IM CRYING AGAIN!

I LOVED MY STEP SON ROGER AND IF YOU WANT TO SEE A PICTURE OF HIM CHECK OUT MY PICS. AND I WILL ALLWAYS LOVE HIM! BUT THANKS TO MY EX WIFE I WONT EVER KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO HAVEMY OWN CHILD. I DONT HAVE A VEHICAL ANYMORE CAUSE I CANT AFORD IT, SO I CANT GO VISIT MY PARENTS AND TWO BROTHERS WHO ARE ALLSO HANDYCAPED. AND THAT MAKES ME SAD, I DO GET TO CALL THEM ONCE A WEEK THANKS TO A CALLING CARD I BUY AT DOLLAR GENERAL. BUT MY OTHER BROTHER IS IN A NURSEING HOME AND HES BEEN THERE SINCE HE WAS 20 YEARS OLD AND I CANT CALL HIM. I KNOW LIFE IS HARD BUT I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD BE THIS HARD. IVE ASKED SO MANY PEOPLE FOR HELP LIKE OUR OWN GOVERMENT AND THE CHURCHES IN MY NEIGHBOR HOOD THE CANIDATES FOR THE PRESIDENCY, ELEN DEGENEROUS SHOW AND EVEN IN MY FIRST BLOG EVER (MY LIFE WITH GOD) I ASKED WHO EVER READ IT FOR HELP! WELL I GUESS NOW THAT MY LIFE IS ABOUT OVER THAT NO ONE CARES OR WANTS TO HELP. SO THATS WHY I FEEL LIKE MY EMOTIONS ARE GOING BESERK!

WRITEN BY JEFF SLOMKOWSKI

a very important read religously!

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 10:55:38 GMT

IM WRITEING THIS BLOG TO GET PEOPLE TO SEE A PHALSE PROPHET A MAN BY THE NAME OF JAMES KINGSLEY I HAVE REPORTED THIS MAN TO THE FBI. AND THEY TOLD ME HOW TO GET THIS PHALSE PROPHET OFF THE INTERNET AT THIS SITE http://www.myspace.com/yahashua AND MANY OTHERS. IF YOU READ MY BLOG http://weblog.revelife.com/slomkowski/663839645/my-life-with-god.html YOU WILL LEARN MORE ABOUT ME AND ABOUT THIS PHALSE PROPHET http://wwjsnl.com/aboutus.aspx AND AS YOU CAN SEE HE HAS A RADIO STATION ON NOW LIVE . NOW IM ASKING ALL MY BEST FREINDS LIKE THE SONG COURTSHIP OF EDDYS FATHER http://www.televisiontunes.com/Courtship_of_Eddies_Father.html IM ASKING YOU FOR YOUR HELP TO STOP THIS MAN FROM ROBBING ANYONES SOULS! YOU BE LIKE , I FEEL LIKE THE UNDERDOG SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Underdog.html OR WE COULD BE LIKE THE A TEAM SNOG http://www.televisiontunes.com/A_Team.html AND GO TO https://complaint.ic3.gov/Default.aspx FILE CHARGES AGAINST THIS GUY FOR IDENTITY THEFT THE MORE PEOPLE WHO FILE CHARGES AGAINST THIS GUY AND THEN WE CAN GET BACK TO WHAT MATERS FAMILY MATTERS SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Family_Matters.html THEN WE GET OTHER FREINDS LIKE THE GOLDEN GIRLS SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Golden_Girls.html ON YOUR FREINDS LIST ON WHAT EVER SITE YOU BELONG TO GT THEM TO SEE THIS BLOG AND GET THE WORD OUT THERE ABOUT THIS PHALSE PROPHET AND WE STOP HIM FROM ROBBING OTHER PEOPLES SOULS! AND THEN WE GET OUR FREINDS TO OPEN THE EYES OF OUR HEART LIKE THE SONG http://wordmusicnow.com/Song.asp?SongID=35 CLCK ON THE SONG TO BE PLAYED BELOW AND WE TAKE HIM DOWN AND THEN WE CAN HAVE OUR OWN HIGH WAY TO HEAVEN SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Highway_To_Heaven.html and now he has a new site to see check out his videos http://www. youtube. com/jesusofzion the end!

WRITEN AND THOUGHT UP BY JEFF SLOMKOWSKI

theese are my journals please read them there has to be a way to get the word out there!

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 13:22:35 GMT

http://www.theforumsite.com/users/jeffslomkowski/journal/

i was shocked and amased on what i saw on tv yesterday!

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 13:19:34 GMT

yes i thought i would do a blog on the episode of wife swap but then i added my own coments in with it!

my life with my ex wife was relived by a episode on wife swap veiwed by me on wjac tv 6 at 8 pm. now on this episode there was a very religous family the childs family with husband chriss and wife leann from rode island swap with and liberal christains beckmans from coloradopower executive wife kim and husband randal is a ex pastor and thinks to much religion is not good for you they both have kids it was a real drama! when i herd from the very religous familys father chris said hes the head of the house hold and that a wife is be his helper /server and that hes the gate keeper, those words gate keeper made me get chills all over my body! the reason why is because my ex wifes site she claims to be the gate keeper! link [profile.myspace.com] now this guy is sounding like hes bordering on a cult leader himself! if you read my blog my life with god, link [www.theforumsite.com] and you read the whole thing i admit it is long but dont forget im 45 years old thats alot to write.and if you read my blogs you will see why this episode of wife swap got to me.and of course im blogging on it a little, now my ex wife met a man on the internet named james kingsley aka jesus of zion a cult leader /con man.this false prophet needs to be stoped here is another blog i did on this false prophet link [www.theforumsite.com] now dont get me wrong i do beleive in religoin but i think there is a limit on how religous you get the father on this show said he is brain washing his kids and forceing them to beleive in what he beleives in! and this family shows proof that to much religon is not a good thing. i mean i beleive in god and jesus but if i had kids i wouldnt force them to do what i beleive religon is a choice. and im sure there are some of you that may have thought i was over religous, and that i should give up on this guy jesus of zion. and that i have gone to far you see here is the diference from me and the man on wife swap[ im not going to let this jesus of zion rule my life and lead it!but its my right as a human being as a indivisual and as a christain to warn people of this man jesus of zion link [profile.myspace.com] then i herd chris say his daughters are not aloud to date and that when there ready to get maried he will be the one to pick there wives or husbands thats just so wrong.they are home schooled so to me that means that they dot have freinds or aloud to stay over at a freinds house prison life it sounds like to me.he said that he lives his life by the bible that made me laff becuse if you lead your life from the bible literaly then you wouldnt be useing electric or television and i think television is a good learning device television brings familys together and you wouldnt beleive the conversations you can have with your family if you watch shows together! i do agree there are some shows your kids shouldnt watch,the father chriss dosent want to folow the rules of the show where the wife who swaps get to change the rules and they have to folow her rules for one week. he said that he dosent have to follow her rules because hes the man of the house and the wife is supose to be his suport!bull craop is what i got to say about that he sined a contract with the show wife swap to follow there rules. some rules are good but to much of a thing can get carried away like i do beleive kids should do chores. i was raised by my mother mostly because my dad was allways working. and im glad for that some guys would think im a wuss because i do alot of things a woman is sopose to be doing like cooking and cleaning sewing crocheghing yarn work laundry. but heres the thing its a learning exspreiance that was good for me because now im alone and im glad i learned how to do those things!i think its a good thing that kids have the choice to make wrong decissions to be able to learn fro there mistakes its apart of life and learning you can give them advice if they choose not to do it the way you said they should then they arnt going to learn for them selves!thats why we have freedom of religon and freedom of speech you cant force them to beleive in what you want them to beleive in they have a choice! now the object of the wife swap show is that someone learns something from the other family and usally they do learn from other family and learn they are doing something wrong and then they chang what they were doing wrong in there lives!theres alot i would have liked to have changed in my maried life,like not doing all the work in the house while my ex wife and step son did nothing but tell me what to do another words use me and abuse me. i finally have had enough and could not take it any more!but i did love her or i wouldnt have put up with all the abuce thats why i pray every day that some good things would happen to make my life better. ive had more bad things happen to me in my life so far. and thats why to that im trying to use the pas it on method witch was a real good movie and true story. if i get this mans info to the right person that can help to take this man down is a acomplishment that would be good for all! pass it on can work and if anyone out there wants to help me get rid of this false profit then all i have been through with this has been worth it all! se i beleive in that everyone has a mission in life your meaning of life mine is to help people and get rid of this false prophet. and if it gets passed on to the right person that beleives like me and dose like i do help others in need, see i beleive in love thy neibor help thy neighbor if you can stop someone from getting hurt its the christain and human thing to do is help! i allso pray to god everyday that the right personor persons out there will be able to help me out of the financial mess my ex wife and this evil man has forced apon me! so if there is anyone otu ther who can or will help me please contact me at jeff.slomkowski@yahoo.com and if you do help me may god bless you and your entire family,especialy during this time of hard ship and depression! writen by jeff slomkowski

I MUST BE DOING SOMETHING RIGHT!

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 06:39:17 GMT

You know the blog i did that got some weird coments on? link [www.theforumsite.com]

well i go to my myspase and wait to you see what i get in my mesage in box Jul 3, 2008
4:31 PM
JESUS of ..

Read jeff.. Where is the LOVE?
link [messaging.myspace.com]
now i saw this as a threat against me i mean if he dosent know why i blog about him is he ruined a 7 year mariage with my wife who i did love and also ruined the love for my son oh excuse me step son and found out later after the divorce is final found out my son got a freind pregnant and i could have been a grand father! thi man is evil and can ruin peoples lives by lieing about who he realy is a crazy man not a prophet! plus the fact that hes taking the lords name in vain! so i ask you who ever reads this blog pas it on so the word gets out there about this guy james kingsley aka jesus of zion!

writen by jeffslomkowski

everyone gets diferent things from my blogs!

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 06:37:00 GMT

but here is the thing i got a message from somone thinking i was the one claiming to be jesus and im like whats this guy saying is he nuts! no im not nuts im telling the truth about a real threat a lier a false prphet a crazy man james kingsley this stuff i write about is all true so help me god im a real christain and this man needs to be stoped please keep the fight going send my blog to any of your freinds on any of your sites you belong to prove that christainanity is still alive and prove that people want the truth! here is the blog site to pass it on! link [www.theforumsite.com]

IM HERE TO STOP A PHALSE PROPHET JESUS OF ZION!

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 21:19:36 GMT

IM WRITEING THIS BLOG TO GET PEOPLE TO SEE A PHALSE PROPHET A MAN BY THE NAME OF JAMES KINGSLEY I HAVE REPORTED THIS MAN TO THE FBI. AND THEY TOLD ME HOW TO GET THIS PHALSE PROPHET OFF THE INTERNET AT THIS SITE http://www.myspace.com/yahashua AND MANY OTHERS. IF YOU READ MY BLOG http://weblog.revelife.com/slomkowski/663839645/my-life-with-god.html YOU WILL LEARN MORE ABOUT ME AND ABOUT THIS PHALSE PROPHET http://wwjsnl.com/aboutus.aspx AND AS YOU CAN SEE HE HAS A RADIO STATION ON NOW LIVE . NOW IM ASKING ALL MY BEST FREINDS LIKE THE SONG COURTSHIP OF EDDYS FATHER http://www.televisiontunes.com/Courtship_of_Eddies_Father.html IM ASKING YOU FOR YOUR HELP TO STOP THIS MAN FROM ROBBING ANYONES SOULS! YOU BE LIKE , I FEEL LIKE THE UNDERDOG SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Underdog.html OR WE COULD BE LIKE THE A TEAM SNOG http://www.televisiontunes.com/A_Team.html AND GO TO WWW.IC3.COM FILE CHARGES AGAINST THIS GUY FOR IDENTITY THEFT THE MORE PEOPLE WHO FILE CHARGES AGAINST THIS GUY AND THEN WE CAN GET BACK TO WHAT MATERS FAMILY MATTERS SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Family_Matters.html THEN WE GET OTHER FREINDS LIKE THE GOLDEN GIRLS SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Golden_Girls.html ON YOUR FREINDS LIST ON WHAT EVER SITE YOU BELONG TO GT THEM TO SEE THIS BLOG AND GET THE WORD OUT THERE ABOUT THIS PHALSE PROPHET AND WE STOP HIM FROM ROBBING OTHER PEOPLES SOULS! AND THEN WE GET OUR FREINDS TO OPEN THE EYES OF OUR HEART LIKE THE SONG http://wordmusicnow.com/Song.asp?SongID=35 CLCK ON THE SONG TO BE PLAYED BELOW AND WE TAKE HIM DOWN AND THEN WE CAN HAVE OUR OWN HIGH WAY TO HEAVEN SONG http://www.televisiontunes.com/Highway_To_Heaven.html THE END !

WRITEN AND THOUGH UP BY JEFF SLOMKOWSKI

my life with a roomate

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 13:46:09 GMT

MY LIFE WITH A ROOMATE!

I met a young lady by the name of carrie and we met while I was getting councleing for my depresion of the devorce I was going through with my first wife! She told me she was going to be homeless soon because her real father wasn’t paying the mortgage on there property and told me he was abuseing her phisicaly. So I told her she could live with me, big mistake! I have a kind heart and I try to help people when ever I can. The christain side of me siad help this young lady, so I helped her move all her stuff into our apartment. She has more stuff then I did, I gave her my bedroom and my bed and I sleep on the couch in the living room. After about a month of living with her she showed intrest in wanting to be my girl friend. I said ok were allready living together so I gave her the chance to be my girl friend, another big mistake. About the third mounth of living together she started to abuse me phiscaly and mentally. But I had hopes of helping her change the way she treated me and asked god for help with this. I came home from getting off of work from a job I was trying to see if I can go back to work , when i opened the door I saw carie there in the kitchen with a knife to wrist. Threatening to cut her wrist she told me she couldn’t stand being alone in the apartment all by herself while I was at work. She was crying and went to slash her wrist I grabed the knife off of her before she could hurt herself, and slaped her to knock some sence into her. It was the first time I ever slaped a lady, but it got her to stop thinking about what she was about to do.

She told me why she wanted to do that and I told her the job I was doing I couldn’t handle so I quit it. But she tried about four other times doing the same thing, finaly I told her if she did it again I wasn’t going to stop her any more and I was going to call the hospital and have her admited into the phych ward. That stoped her from trying to do that ever again so far. About the fourth mounth of living with her and being her boy friend she introduced me to her real mother and step father. I found out she has three younger sisters and her family excepted me as part of her family. The phisical abuse from her kept getting worce, but I told her we would work on that problem. I still had hopes of helping her change that, see comeing from a abusive father she thinks that’s the only way of showing her love to someone. Well after six mounths of living together I told her she needed to get a job or get ssi like me. So she got a job at mcdonalds resteraunt and I allso got her to get a medical card from welfare and had her sing up for ssi just in case the job she was doing didn’t work out.

Well after working just one week she was compaining about the boss telling her what to do. I told her there was going to be somone you work with that your not going to get along with and that she would just have to deal with it. After working for mcdonalds for about a mounth, she received a lettewr from social security that she was excepted for ssi. So she asked me if it was ok to quit her job, I said as long as you have a income comeing in to help with the bills then yes you can quir if you want. So she did, it was about the eighth mounth that we were together and it was around christmass time and I thought things were getting better between us. So I went for the next step wich was to buy and engagement ring and prepose mariage to her. She was very happy about this and so was her family.

After being engaged to her for about two months she told me she had to go to court for fighting with her stepmother who was allso abusive to her. So I went to court with her and they gave her community service for what she did. While at community service witch was for a mounth, she met this young man who”s name was nick. But she brought this young man to our apartment telling me hes aand old friend of hers. So of cource I said hes welcome in our apartment, the second week of him comeing to visit. He brought with him some weed and found out later it was laced with lsd. He came because carrie wanted to get a tatto and she wanted me to get one to so after smoking that he gave her a rose tatto on her arm and a unicorn on her one breast. When it was my turn I was prety out of it and told him I just want one on my arm of my favorite guy gene simons of kiss. After he was done I was so tirerd and out of it I went to her bedroom to lay down. I was out like a lite, while I was sleeping the phone rang. And it was a friend of mine on the phone named nicole and she was the young lady we set nick up with as a girl freind. While on the phone with carrie and me out cold nick and carrie had sex with each other while still on the phone with my friend.

When I finally woke up he was leaving and she told me after he had allready left that he raped her that pissed me off of course, I took the door frame of the doorway and ripped it completely off the wall with my hands. I got a phone call from my friend nicole the next day telling me that carrie wasn’t raped that she was enjoying what her and nick were doing. And the reason she knows this she told me was that while they wer doing it together she was still on the phone with carrie and she was moaning in pleasure saying yes nick harder faster. That pissed me off, now I have a tattoo from a guy who had sex with my fiance. And to me its like he got paid for the tattos by having sex with carrie, and ill allways have that tattoo as a reminder of what my now ex fiance and nick did together. I have also had to deal with other mental abuse from her like her calling me a retard and a moron all the time, and the reason I call that mental abuse is I was calld those kind of names for most of my child hood because I was slow and was in speacil education classes. Carrie dose no house work what so ever dosent cook clean or pick any thing up either. I do all the work, I was raised to cook clean and be able to take care of myself.

I allso have noticed that she wasn’t takeing showers for about a week, that to me disguted me. So I told her she had to take a shower at least twice a week and told her to that she had to clean he own room. She did that for about two weeks then went back to not doing a thing but play game all day, every day! I told carrie finaly that I had enough, and wanted her to find her own place to live. I even told her counclers at MH MR and her conclers at independent living that they need to find her somewhere else to live. She cryed and tried to make me feel guilty abouy wanting her to move out. But she still abuses me mentaly and physacly, her counclers told me to press charges against her for that but I can’t do that, its my kind heart that can’t bring me to do that to her.

So I called the homeles shelter in somerset pa called next step witch is where I was when my ex wife had me kicked out! But they told me that they were full and all her counclers told me was to give her time to look for a place of her own, I did that but she didn’t look or even want to move out. She thought that in time I would go back to her as a boy friend. I even asked her own family her mom and step dad if they knew of a place she could move into. They told me she is no longer welcome in there home. Because they told me that she did live with them before and she treated them like shit and would not listen to what they told her to do. Her own grand mother told me when she lived with her that she almost caused her to have a heart atach while she was living with her. So I thought of and idea I was going to show her what it was like to live on her own. I needed some time away from her so I asked my parents if I could come down to stal with them for about a month. And they knew what I was going through with her. And they said yes so I told carrie that I was going to spend some time with my family and she had to learn how to shop for groceries and keep the apartment clean while I was gone. And also cook her own food and do the dishes.

She had a birthday party to go to while I was at my parents house and it fell in the middle of the mounth so I asked her mom and step dad while I was away if they would take her to the birthday party of her friend who she allready told her that she would be atending. And they told me that they would take her, I also told carrie that she could call me if she needed to, the funny thing there was she was calling me every day maybe twice a day. This one day she called me up and told me that her mom told her she wasn’t going to pick her up for the party and me promissing her she would be able to go. I cut my stay short by two weeks and came back so I could take her to her party.

Then when I took her we stoped at her parents house and she visited her sisters and I was talking to her step dad and he asked me why I was back early and I told him that carrie told me that her mom said she wasn’t going to take her and that’s why I was back early. Well he asked his wife and checked his cell phone to see if carrie called her mom and found out she lied to get me to come home to be there for her. She couldn’t handle it on her own, so I agreed to be just room mates with her as long as she pays her share of the rent. Witch she dose pay her share of the rent, my father gave me one of his three computors he had with I had to clean virusses out of and I told carrie I was bringing home a computor that she could use. So she pays for the internet and the cable in her name. But here is another funny thing she was thinking of moveing in with another guy who she was talking to on the internet. But she wanted me to give her the dresser that was here when we moved in and the bed that was given to me by my parents before I met her, and also said that I would need to haul it for her in my truck and wanted the computor that my dad gave me! I said no and she said I thought you were getting the computor for me, I said no fat chance of that happening I said you can use it not keep it.

Its been two and a half weeks now and I have noticed she still hasn’t taken a shower or a bath and when she dose she just sits in the tub and soaks she dosent use soap or a rag. Her room is a mess and there is boxes every where, and clothes threw around every where. Her icm concler caim to check up on her she dose that like once a mounth and she asked me how she was doing I told her about her sleeping most of the day and how her room is a mess and that she hasn’t sowered or bathed in two weeks. Her coucler told me to wake her up witch I did and she asked carrie if she could see her bedroom and she flat out told her no! then she asked her about takeing a shower or bath and told her it wasn’t any of her buisness and her icm told her that it was her buisness to make sure she is doing ok! After she went out the door I got a ear full of her saying to me why was her concler asking me about her. I told her that im sory but you stink and its not helthy not takeing and cleaning your self, she called her icm a bitch and told me to mind my own buisness.

So as you can see what I have to deal with every day with my roommate and I have to wake her up every week day so she can go to peer station and to go to councling. Witch im glad she dose go to so she is out of my hair for half a day each week day.

my life with a roomate

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 13:27:06 GMT

MY LIFE WITH A ROOMATE!

my life with god

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 13:47:23 GMT

my life with god

This is the story of my life im jeff Slomkowski im 44 years old I was born may 29th 1963 in a small town called Natrona hights pennsylvaina . Most people think god isn't in there life and wounder why he isn't helping in their lives. Well I can honestly say he has been in my life and helps those who try to help them selves but I never had a good or easy life mine was very hard! When I was about 12 years old I tried to kill both my brothers. Tim and Kevin I tried to do this as we were playing once we were playing cowboys and Indians and I tied my brother tim to a tree and put wood around it and poured gasoline on it and was going to set him on fire. This is how I know god was in my life I struck the match to light him up and was going to through it on the wood, when my mother came out and stoped me. She told me later that she felt something was wrong and she better go and check on us. The second time I tried to kill my brother was with Kevin this time. We were playing Frankenstein and I tied him to a table and was going to push him off a cliff where we lived that at the botom was a major road way. But again my mother had that feeling again and just as I had him up ready to push off the cliff she came and sloped me again.
The third atempt I went to try and kill my whole family, by a house explosion. Both my parents smoke so I blew out the piolet lights out on our gas stove. turnd them all on and went to a play house with the neighbor girl and waited for the boom. that never came god had sent one of the neighbors over to chek on them. it's a good thing because my mother was about to light up a smoke when she answerd the door. As you can tell I lived a toubled life and was getting worse I found out later through counseling. That I was asking for attention because both my brothers had serious problems and got most of the attention from my parents. Another words I was jelouse of them and wanted to be the only child of my parents.
I had troubles in school to I was in speacil education classes and was picked on a lot by other kids. Kids can be very hatefull to other kids with just words, like retard and your doumb stuff like that like I said both my brothers had problems too Kevin had four brain tumor operations and tim was diagnosed as being mentally retarded. So needless to say being in speacel ED I didn't have many friends or girl friends well this one day a neighbor hood girl who I thought was gorgeous told me if I showed her my private parts she would show me hers. Mean while I didn't know it then but my grand mother was on the front porch and herd the whole thing and saw the whole thing! Needless to say I showed her she smiled then ran into her house the police were called and I was put injuvy hail, for indecent exsposer. I was about 14 years old when that hapend. I was molested by one of the gaurds who worked there and never said any thin till I was 20 years old. To this day I cant use a public urinal because im allways afraid ill be ramed up the ass. So I have to go into a booth that locks and sit to take a piss!
Then in 11th grade I was expelled from school for running through the girls locker room naked on a dare, that one of the popular kids asked me to do to be one of there friends. There were no girls in the locker room though, but the principle and the coach was in there. When I was 18 years old I got kicked out of my parents house because they had enough of my bad behavor. I was stealing money from my moms purse and putting it in the poker machines that my father had taught me how to play. My mother told my father either I go or she was going to leave him and of course I was the one to go. Now I was homeless, I bought a tent and was living behind the high school at the botom of the hill the cops came and said I could not camp my tent there. So I asked a preist if I could stay in the church for some where to sleep he told me I could sleep in the basement till he could take me to a homeless shelter in Pittsburgh.
I was home less for six months then I got put on welfare when I was 21 because I sined up for disability. I moved back closer to where my parents lived in Tarentmn PA in a motel called the prawha hotel any way it was the cheapest place I could find to live. There was a bar there and I got the bad news that I was denied my SSI so I went down to the bar and was going to get drunk as a skunk. A guy at the bar told me he would give me a hundreed dollars if I could drink ten shots of taquela and then get off the bar stool and stand and remain standing without falling over for ten minutes. The second shot had the wonn in it and neddless to say I lost the bet and had to pay for all those drinks. But I was drunk and it was during the hottest heat wave we ever had, I had no fan or air conditioner so I fell asleep in the window on the second floor. I got niopre depressed and decided to end my life there.
I jumped out of that two story window head first but forgot there was a landing under me there and bonceed off that and landed on my left ankle. Needless to say I smashed it and woke up in a lot of pain and hopped back inside to call a ambulence of course I told them I fell out of the window instead of jumping, because its against the law to commit suicide. But god was with me then and didn't want me to end my life that way. I wanted the doctor to cut my foot off but he said he was going to try and save it so now I have six screws in there holding my ankle together. To this day I wish he would have cut it off.
Because of a thing called arthritis its very painfull and every winter or during a maj ore storm, im reminded of what a stupid thing I tried to do. Well I was homeless again because the place I was staying at would not let me stay there any more in fear of me sueing them witch I never did. So here I was at a homeless shelter again with a cast on my foot you should try to getting around being homeless with a cast and crouches its not easy, I ended up tkaeing the cast off before I was sopose to. that's when I also found out more about god I was at the salvation armys shelter and they gave me a bible I finaly could understand and read!
I volunteered to collect for the salvation army for about three or four years every holiday, I was one of the best colectors of money they had. I was about 25 years old now and my dad told me that they would give me another chance to live with them if I behaved myself of course. I said I would but that didn't last to long I got into gambling again and stole a lot of money out of my mothers purse. I knew I was in big trouble so I stole more money and packed my bags and took my car and went to florida to see if I could make it out there on my own! Big misstake I know people can be crule but I didn't know how crule they could realy be, see I allawys give in to people because I never had any real friends and took a lot of shit from people who wernt my friends at all.
I was on SSI before I left to go to florida but I forgot to get a post office box and lost my SSI for being homeless again! So now I had to try and find work some where, well I did with this one guy who said he can help me with a place to stay. He introduced me to a couple who had a house and I worked for him. The lady was verry nice but her husband was a real ass hole, I never knew a guy who could be so evil and hateful in my whole life till then. He beat on his wife belittled her and tormented her and me. I worked for the cheapest guy in the world I was doing drywall jobs for him he taught me how to hanging it and finishing drywall. That job I found out later pays about 14 dollars a hour I was getting paid 4 dollars an hour.
Of course I had to pay the couple rent and that was about every thing I was making at work so I had no money for my self. I found out later that I was paying the rent for the whole house they were staying at and all they paid was about 200 dollars for food. I had a jeep eagle at that time and it was Christmas time and I was invited to another party at another house I had to drive them to there parrents house for a party then I asked his wife if I could go to the party I was invited to go. She said yes and she would call me to let me know when to pick them up when I went to go pick them up he beat me up real bad because he got in a fight with her dad and had know way to leave so he took it out on me. That wasn't the last time I ever was beating up by him, I was even shot by him with a cross bow it penetrated my right shoulder just the tip because I don't know how I did it but with gods help I think I caught the arrow with my left hand before it could penatrate any more thank god!
This one time I had to go to a job and do some fire walls in the attic of this new structure anyway some one forgot to nail this one board I steped on to walk across and fell through the rafters and skined my hair off my right underarm. My boss didn't have insurance on us the cheap bastard, any way he gave me two days off and had tim's wife bandage me up. Any way a big storm took out some roofs in jaksonvile florida and tim and his wife had to go do some roofing for the boss. Tim told me I had to feed and take care of his two dogs while he was away and if anything hapend to them he was going to kill me. So I went to work the next day and fed the dogs before I left to work but when I got home they were both loose from their chains. He abused his dogs like he did to us too, any way I called him when I found out they broke there chains. He told me to put them in there bedroom and to keep feeding them and he will deal with the problem when they get home. Like I said I had no money for my self so I couldn't buy any chains for them.
Well I went to work the next day and when I got home to feed the dogs the bedroom was tore apart and clothes were every where and all torn up even the bed was chewed up and the window was broken and the dogs were gone. I looked every where for them and they were nowhere to be found. Needless to say I remembered what tim told me when he left I was scared for my life now! The dogs were probably thinking the same thing so they left, witch I don't blame them any way. I had no money to go any where so I took what belonged to me and some of what belonged to them. And pawned the stuff to get money to get away! I told my dad what happened and he told me he would tell them where their stuff was and paid them to get there stuff back. I thought that matter was solved and so did my dad, but of course we were dealing with a evil ass hole! I moved back in with my parents when I was 30 years old to help them with my grand mother who was very ill I had siraitend out my bad ways and was doing all the house work cooking cleaning and takeing care of my grand mother for my mother.
My mother and grand mother didn't get along that well together in the same house. They faught constantly and this one time she pissed my mother off something terrible, and she took off and said she wasn't comeing back so I told tim my brother to watch gram while I made sure my mother was ok cause she tried to kill herself with a knife and I got it off of her before she left. I folowed her from a distance and made sure she was allright she came back home before my dad got off work. I was thankful! that god had me there to help out! Any way I was feeling a lot of preasure from doing all the house work and going to work as a pizza delivery boy. And wanted to find someone to live my life with so I searched the internet for a girl friend that I could hopefully fall in love with and get married.
I met and dateed a lot of young ladys from the internet but felt nothing for them as far as love goes so I went back to the internet and was looking again for love when I found this one lady by the name of sue we talked on the internet web sight called american singles.com and I did I fall in love with her words she spoke to me by way of emails and ICQ witch was a way of talking directly to the person by way of microphone and speakers. Any way we talked for about 6 months before we met in person and we set that up to be done at McDonalds in somerset PA, it was suposed to be me meeting her and her 14 year old step son who was a very big boy for his age and her mother that was suposed to be all that was to show up for our first date!
I should have left and tryied to find someone else when I found out that I was going to be meeting her intire family! And I mean her entire family 12 people in all, and one of them told me that there cousin was a sharp shooter in the military, their I am all by my self with two bunches of flowers for her and her mother being grilled by her family after eating we went to the movies and saw the run away bride, I find that funny now, I should have did the same thing run far away from her and her family but I didn't. Love must be blind and deaf and dumb! We dated for about 6 more months with me going back and forth on weekends on my tips for gas money. Then we decided on trying to live together so we lived together for 6 more months and I thought every thing was going good. So I bought an engagement ring for her and was going to propose mariage to her on christmass day!
I should have known then that things were not going to go right when I showed her the ring and she nearly ripped that sucker right out of my hands! At my parents house. But they were happy for me none the less. We got maried on September 23" 2000 the worse day of my life, because we went into so much debt for that wedding and ended up with a honeymoon at her trailer and going to a zoo! I even cooked all the food for my own wedding party, witch took me hours to do. My bachler party was a hoot, most of time you get a stripper or some movies not me I had a party with just my family at a steak house none of her side came for. Then they threw me a party of there own by getting me so drunk that I told my whole life story to all them and embarrassed myself to all of them.
The first two years of mairrage was ok, me and roger that's her 14 year old son did our best to bound but it wasn't easy. He and my step mother was fighting our mariage all the way, sue ended up trying to comit suicide and ended up in the hospital they said it would probably be best if we separated and tried to see if that may work out we were still seing each other even though we were separated and it was like we were dateing all over again. This one girl I knew who I thought was a friend used me and my apartment for a place to molest a young 12 year old boy whos father was a state police officer. She gave this boy a blow job in my bed room while I was at the store getting some cigs didn't find out till latter that they did that and when I did me and sue went to the police and had the boy tell the cops what he told me! That was embarrassing for him because he had to tell his dad what happened.
I thought it was very unfare that I had to move becase it happened in my apartment so me and sue were living with each other again. Mean while me and roger did bound and became like best friends! We wrestled in a back yard wrestling club with some other neighbor hood boys, we were pretty good and funny too. I didn't know it then but a evil presence entered our lives by way of sue she found this guy named james kingsley from oregon on the internet web site called myspace! A good place to meet friends but the wrong place for the freak she met, See he told her and me that he's jesus christ reincarnated. He also told us that he has hepititus C from using hard core drugs like henion and cocane witch is aides.
This guy got my wife to believe that she was a guy in a past life and that she is to fight the beast of babalon who he says is the president of the united states. So now she thinks she is a guy called Elijah reincarnated, and she is to find a gate way called zion and some time soon this gateway will open up and she is to go into it to a kingdom called zion where guys will have seven wives and will have sex and all the weed they want!she shaved her head and stoped having sex with me for the last two years of our mariage. The guy has so many folowers that he even had some of my step sons freinds believing he was jesus christ reincarnated. He had them bring weed into our house and told my wife that it was good for us to smoke it. He got my wife to get over 26 credit cards in all through me and her and she took and sent this nut case several times money from those cards. And he took and bought drugs with it, im soiy but I don't think Jesus christ would be a drug user! He even told my wife that it would be a good idea for me to have a play mate on the internet to spice up our manage. Witch it didn't, he showed my wife his private parts on the internet over 5 times. And had phone sex with her on the phone I caught her one time playing with her self while on the phone with him. She said that I was just seing things from the weed that rogers freinds had brought in the house,
I don't know how any one can believe this guy is jesus when he has done wht he has done to my wife. So I told my mother in law about this guy and she told me to call the FBI on him, so I did. They thought I was a nut case my self, and did nothing but sue found out that I called the FBI and she threatened my life. She told me in these very words that all she has to do is give the followers my name address and phone number and they want me dead for calling the FBI on him. That did it for me my heart was tore up I thought I was having a heart atack. But I kept on fighting her about this guy cause I knew she needed some serious help. I even told her sister about what was going on and they all choose to ignore it and let her do what she wants to do.
She even called the cops on me to have me put out of her home the cops herd what my mother inlaw had to say and roger and me and the cop said I cant put you out of here but I advise you get her and you to get couceling for what was going on. So I agreed that I would get counseling if she did to, but she said no. And later told my mother inlaw that I was buying weed and bringing it into the house for roger to smoke. Witch was two lies one I never bought it and second rogers friends were bringing it in to the house and she was letting it happen. But she did manage to get me kicked out of the house and I ended up homeless again.
The funny thing about all of this is her and my family didn't get along because she knew they were concidered middle class and that bugged her. Any way my aunt predicted to my mother that the reason sue was turning me against my parents and why they didn't like them was that she was involved in a cult and was using drugs. Another way I knew god was in my life he told that message to my mothers sister and it was the truth. She still talks to this nut case, I herd them on a radio station he now has on myspace on thanksgiving day.
I have tried evely thing I can think of to try and stop this guy from hurting any one elses family. With no luck I even tried to have something wrote about this guy on the local news papper they didn't print it. Then like I said I tried the FBI and they thought I was nuts. Then I even tried to get this guy to apear on the show, the jerry sprinnger show. Of course he said there was no way he would apear on that show. I have been through so much depression over this that I lost over 5Olbs and several times wanted to kill myself! But god has kept me from doing this, I hope that some how some way this guy and my ex wife will be stoped,
before he hurts someone else! He has a web site on myspace and he calls himself jesus of zion. I called the FBI 4 more times, the last time i got a hold of a christain woman FBI agent. And she told me how i could get the both of them deleted from the internet site myspace. The first thing she told me to do was to go to the web site www.ic3/gov.com and file internet fraud charges against them both. And she told me if i get enough people to file charges of internet fraud, that they would investagate the both of them.The second thing was to email tom the first freind you get when you join myspace, and report them both to him for abuseing his internet site. I thought I got them both deleted, but they found out that i was calling the FBI again and thought it would be best if they deleted them selves. To show that i was makeing things up, and had roger my step son call me and ask me since they had deleted them selves if i would stop calling the FBI and if i was done fighting them. That was a huge low blow to do that, so i told him that i would stop fighting them. I lied to him so that they would get back on and i would get them deleted by tom him self. They did get back on by help of my ex wife sue she is a very smart person she graduated from alleghney collage of maryland. With the highest honors and was valavictorian of her class in computor graphics. Another words shes a snake in the grass and should not be taken lightly. They both got back on myspace by sue copying there sites before they deleted them selves. So when they did get back on myspace they wouldnt lose any of there information and blogs and freinds.they got back on the internet on national prayer day. Witch i did go to at the steps of somerset PA court house, I was the only one there with a bannor. And on that bannor it said (im here to pray in jesus christ name that jesus of zion would get reported to the web site www.ic3/gov ). I even called the news television station WJAC chanel 6 news team, and told them why i was going to be there for and what the sine ment that i was holding. The only thing was that no one from the news team showed up to interveiw me about this. The dailey americn news papper of somerset PA was there to take pictures, but like the FBI he thought i was just crazy. And no one there even asked me what my bannor meant. I found it odd though there was about a hundred people there, and none of them noticed that a boy scout was there on the steps of the court house holding the united states flag had passed out and hit his head on the concreet. I waited a full minute before i ran to his aid. And i was the first one to help him, then my ex pastor was second. Then the photographer for the news papper was third then my ex pastor told me to let the boys family take care of him. I thought that was so wrong that i was the only one to see what happend to that boy scout. And the reason i said ex pastor was, I used to go to his chuch witch is called The NEW LIFE ASSEMBLY OF GOD on stoys town road in someset PA. I beleive i was sent to his chuch by god himself, it was weird i have this cd called OPEN THE EYES OF MY HEART the ultimate worship anthems of christain faith. Its produced by time life any way i used this cd to keep my sanity.Let me explain, it says in the bible to keep your freind close but keep your eneimies closer so thats what i did. And thats how i found out all about james kingsley. The only thing is he oviously can influence peoples minds and get them to beleive he's realy jesus christ reincarnated. So i used the cd of music to keep my sanity, and the reason i say god sent me to that church is they played all those songs at that church. And they didnt know this cd was out there, so thats how i think it was god who sent me there and i did felt like gods presence was there in the church. At that time i told my pastor Thomas Krull that there was a guy on the internet, named james kingsley who claims to be jesus christ reincarnated on myspace and even showed him on his computor. I told him how my wife comitted credit card fraud and threatend my life if i didnt sine the debt consolidation loan pappers. And how now im paying there debts they caused. And asked him for the churches help both with stoping this man and my ex wife from robbing peoples souls. And help for me financialy and with food help, he turned me away three times! Dose this sound famiure it should its in the bible that one of jesuses own deciples turned his head from him three times. And im sory i think its so wrong that a church of god would not do any thing about a man a false prophet who claims to be jesus christ. And what ever happend to help thy neighbor? I even asked help from a famous christain radio station for the same help i asked my chuch for, k love 97.7fm and they did the same they turned me away three times for help. A mater of fact they have even blocked my number from calling them anymore. whats wrong with this world when a church or the goverment who say they beleive in god one god indivisual with liberty and justice for all, do nothing to stop this false prophet and my ex wife? and theese two have been on the internet now for 4 years! if you want to see there sites here they are i did get them deleted twice but there back on the internet now again. http://www.myspace.com/yahashua http://www.myspace.com/elia_gatekeeper_of_zion I can't do any thing else but ask people to help get them off the intenet, the reason why is my ex wife sent me a registered letter from a legal firm saying that im harrassing her and stawking her and if i don't quit charges will be filed against me. If you have any questions or if you want to help me you can email me at jeff.slomkowski@yahoo.com